Hello, I am VERY new to all that is happening. I have always lived in the deep South and never been knowledgeable of Eastern Religions or really anything spiritual (just a bad taste in my mouth about organized religion: Southern Baptist). I've always been very independent and never bought into organized religion, thus quite the 'out cast' in my family and community. So....jump forward many many years ...still no particular religion or spirituality in my life ..but started listening to Eckhart Tolle and BAM! One thing led to another - I was taken on a wild ride - that led me through all the things happening in the world, that I'd never paid any attention to (just didn't think it really mattered). I went through watching 'channelers,' on youtube - and somehow knowing that although it seemed OK and happy - it wasn't for me - to stumbling across Lisa Renee and feeling a deep 'knowing' that I needed to hear the information that she was providing. This whole process has taken place in the last 3-4 months and I barely recognize myself some days anymore. I don't understand why I seem to understand or 'know' what she's saying or why I can't seem to stop seeking out information, even long enough to think about it all. I just know I'm supposed to be listening to her words and connecting to the information. I've never been psychic in any way nor have I ever had any interest, at all, in UFO's or anything associated with ET life. I'm not a frightful person. I've always been open minded and somewhat able to 'sense' right from wrong, good from bad, but I've never thought much about it.
OK ...sorry ....that's a very short background which leads to my question.
When I started trying to find out what Chakra's are and started talking to my guides and asking for help and understanding, I first got a very joyful feelings that I think were probably 5th dimensional, but I didn't think that's where I wanted to stay ...and those feeling went away pretty quickly (not that I said anything to make them leave). The problem is that now, I keep getting VERY VERY frightening feelings every time I try to learn to meditate (like a very dark presence is near me), and also at night during sleep. I have never been a person who remembers having dreams, at all. I can count all the dreams during my entire life on one hand. Now, all of a sudden, I'm having nightmares. I go to sleep and start having the most horrible dream feelings ...I'm totally engulfed in fear (that I don't recognize) I don't know the cause of the fear - I just can't move at all and I can't call out for help, then I become aware that I am dreaming and I start talking myself out of t he dream and wake myself up. I wake up sometimes drenched in sweat with muscle cramps in my legs and feet. I have done, and continue to do, the releasing fear exercises that are on the website as well as one from a lady named Inelia Benz, but so far no results. I also my 12d shield as best I can - it is difficult for me to see anything in my mind at this point, but I have the picture provided on the website and use that as an image in my mind. I guess my question or reason for this email is to see if there is something else I need to do, that I'm just not aware of at this point. The overwhelming and paralyzing fear at night is really troubling and the scary 'presence' I feel when trying to learn to meditate is proving completely disruptive to my progress. I've had a feeling that the 'presence' may be a dark part of 'me' that needs to be faced and reclaimed - but I don't seem to be able to get past the feelings of terror that grab me and hold me hostage long enough for 'right action' in the moment to have passed.
I am totally resonate with the Law of One, and use the words often in my continued pursuit of total awakening. I am God, I am Sovereign, I am Free.
I hope this email makes some sense, as I feel I'm really rambling. Thank you so much for your time and for any help or insight you may offer.
Dear Lisa, Just a very quick sharing of an experience which is one of many however, this one was pretty intense.To this day, I wonder if I was clearing a past life, or I was attacked or just perhaps clearing as in Polarity Integrator. I would be so very grateful for a response.
I felt the need to share this with you as even today I am still a little perplexed by it all this happened with my health about 2 years ago.
It lasted for 7 months in total. Initially I had an itch down in my private area and it felt like I was being bitten at times It was not thrush I have had that once in my life so I know the symptoms. I had in the 7 months very bad smelling wind :)))) sorry about all this personal stuff but it actually gets worse so be prepared! In the 7 months I had 2 courses of antibiotics ( I never take medication ) Canasten Creme, An acid gel application as I thought I may have had an Acid/Alkaline imbalance. I had a vaginal ultrasound and nothing showed...NORMAL ...Hmmm the symptoms still were there although speeding up...lots of itching and at times nipping...biting...One day within the 7 months I had an afternoon nap...I awoke remembering this dream ...it was bizarre...I came out and told my partner I dreamed that I had been raped by a dragon and my partner was there also on the bed. The dragon/reptilian was green and brown and my partner had on Green and brown pyjamas, the dream was profound and stayed with me.
Now I have to introduce the Organite ...a William Reich invention...have you heard of it? Anyway it is a protection material...after this dream I then thought that perhaps I had been attacked ...oh so confusing at times...although I am learning and growing every day. So I have a device that can blast intruders out of your Aura. So this day I lay on my lounge with the device and went within...what I saw was the same image however, the dragon was in a cage and had his head turned toward me and tears were running down his face and I know in my heart he was sorry. I felt the emotion and wanted to do a clearing right there and then however I were going to an Earth energy workshop...OMG...I know this may sound crazy however I come in the utmost integrity...The symptoms continued gaining strength and I was using lots of creme until this day. My partner was away..I worked the shop... I am the proprietor of a New Age Business, holding the light in our town, it was hot. It was a Saturday so only half day opening at the shop...I came home and the itch was driving me crazy ...there was no burning...but biting I took off all my clothes and lay down on my bed with the fan on...after a short time I had the most bizarre energy waves like contractions. I had my hands on my ribcage and a bearing down started...I was mortified...I said in my mind OMG not this...I felt shame and even now it brings tears to my eyes anyway I saw a dirt passageway in my mind it had rocks on either side and down the end there was a vortex swirling with a pair of hands poking out...I gave birth to a omg this is so crazy...I gave birth to a black POLE yes a pole. I think now I may understand it I'm not sure...I told my very best friend after 3 months...she says I must have been poled in a past life...hmmm could be so...anyway from that day on I have not had any of the symptoms AT ALL and that is the truth...all the biting, itching and foul wind etc has gone. Now I am crying cause it is so confusing at times and I know I am not crazy there have been other experiences ...similar but different also...So basically Lisa, all this and other strange stuff has happened since this lady came into my shop and I KNOW there was an activation that took place. I FELT and SAW it ...she was so Angelic and light. Thank-you for listening.
I read and post your newsletters frequently .. they have been a great help to me. I wondered if you could help me with something. My daughter ... it is strange really ... but sometimes I feel that she is dark.
When she was a baby I recall breastfeeding her and her eyes going very dark ( they would do this a lot ..and still do) .. and she just looked right through me .. it was odd and disconcerting at the time. I said to her `Don't you dare look at me that way!' Actually when she does this it is as though we are two spirits squaring up to one another. She does got get upset when it is like this but rather looks at me and her eyes go incredibly dark. I get really forceful and we square up against each other .. it is as if something else is going on underneath.
Once I had an 'experience' when I went into her room ( it was between dream states ... sort of astral work) ..and me , AA Michael and other angels set to work removing some kind of entity from her. She was a different person for a while after that and then she gradually went back to how it was. When we did the `work' to remove the entity I do not recall `feeling' anything about it other than there was a job to get done.
Our relationship is not so great ... things are fine when she gets what she wants ... if not ... her eyes go dark and she closes in on herself.
Things usually go haywire when I am feeling my own inner power ... which is substantial.. it is usually then that things will kick off with her and I feel that I can get sideswiped...distracted... and my inner power seems to diminish... my vibrations considerably lowered... and I tend to go back to some bad old habits.
At the moment I feel that I can sense this happening but the job at hand is too large ..
She is 13 ... which can be a trying time at the best of times .. however this has been ongoing ...since she was a baby.
I feel that maybe I should not be telling you this feeling I have ..I have not really spoken to anyone about it ... except my husband... however I trust that you may be able to shed some light on things for me... and maybe give me some assistance on how to deal with what is happening.
Help needed for alien mind control Enter your Message: : I am being attacked by a negative alien named Dave and his group. I need advise on how to remove this control over my mind. I do know my purpose for being on earth. I am blocked from contacting with guides from the light. I do know now that the pain I feel within my body is only in mind and they can't hurt me physically anymore. They are applying pressure to my head something like downloads to the top of my head. The pressure is being applied stronger now because I am contacting you. They also use the two voices always telling me what to do. One big problem is when I go to sleep and wake up. My house is safe but this is in my mind. My guides from the light will help once these negative aliens leave me alone for anytime. I know I am here to help the people on earth to ascend to the 5th dimension. I do meditate and focus on the light. I am applying the 12d protection to me. I can't find what information I need to take my life back from the mind control. I have dealt with this negative energy before when it time for me to move forward with the plans my guides have for me. I am strong minded and I understand my negative thoughts aren't my own. I know that I will receive the information I need for guidance from this group.
Hi I am not sure whether you can help, but I will just share this and see what comes back. Okay both my husband and I are no stranger to night time awakenings to see 'energy' above our bed... We are used to it, the form is sometimes like a TV screen with entities looking through at us, or a physical energy weaving shapes around us, or a energetic mass which has tentacles and is flowing. It is also not unusual for me to have a very real experience in a dream like state or being probed, or a sensation coming in via the back of my neck. Last night the same thing I was dreaming and felt a sharp probe in my LH side into my ribs, and the sensation at the back of my neck that was so intense it made me nauseaus, in fact the dream woke me up. I immediately noticed the 'TV' screen and an entity looking through which disappeared very quickly, then out of the corner of my eye I noticed a tentacle type energy, I turned onto my back to see quite a large moving tentacle type mass reseeding and disappearing.
Is this anything you have heard of, or experienced? do you know what it is. My husband and I live a Shamanic life, I am a healer and writer, and have in the last year been studying sacred geometry and how the earth has been seeded by the stars, there has been a huge awakening and shift in my own consciousness during that time. I would appreciate any information or help you may have.